Every day before he leaves for work,
I give him a ginourmous hug
&& when he's long gone
 I can still smell him on me....

I love it.

<3 Zoe Loft

I'm beginning to feel like nobody wants to hire me...

I'm not gonna lie. I have been idly sitting on my ass for the better part of the month of June and July, but now here it is August and still no bites in the employment department. That does sound kind of bad, but I give myself the benefit of the doubt by reminding myself that I have only been actively looking for a job for about two weeks, consistently. Then I remember that I have applied to over 12 jobs in the past few weeks and if I have a response from that place, it's a no. I'm trying my hardest to aim high (not too high). I mean, I'm a freakin college graduate. Yea, its an Associates Degree but damnit, its a degree! It's better than most 21 year olds my age with a child and one on the way.

I like to think that I'm doing pretty good for myself, but the truth is I'm not, I'm getting to that point were I'm getting bills and no funds, but don't mistake any of this ranting as a pity party. For some reason I'm not the least bit sad or discouraged about it. I'm not even worried about where the money is going to come from. Jesus is on my side. I live for him and he takes care of me. That's the deal. So, even though I'm going through a tough time, and taking it all in stride, I know this will pass and that he has something totally amazing in store for me. So what if I have to MAN up and work at Jack in the Box for a bit, it's all in his timing. Maybe I need that humbling experience to know, "HEY TIFFANY. YOU'RE NOT THAT IMPORTANT!" Of course I am important, but that importance has nothing to do with my own eyes and thats what I have to tell myself. Because once I start thinking to myself that I am too important to do certain things, thats when I have taken my eyes and turned them inward. It's much harder to see the perils of the world around you when you have no eyes....

We'll see. I put in for four jobs today...

Hopefully the fish will start to bite.

Tiffany

MEN.

I SWEAR I'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND THEM

&& THEIR COOKY WAYS.

♥ F.B.

Sin is sweet
But righteousness is sweeter.

Consider this the first, and hopefully not last, entry to my WRITER'S BLOG.
Feel free to stay awhile && analyze me.

I'm not sure many ppl I know come here anymore, but that's okay. Some quiet time will do me good, at least, away from the craziness that this world has to offer. I've had so many ideas today that I want to put down in someway. Ideas that need to be heard and read by anyone who knows how to read. More and more as time goes on, I feel that what I have to say is important and I have this pressing urge to finally do something about it. It's all-consuming to the point where I can hardly think straight anymore. I don't know what to do with this burning urge. I never make the time to satisfy this hunger that is growing inside of me. God willing, I'll be able to let it all out and let it be seen, but nonetheless, I feel this is the best place to start. Here, with you and no one else.

It's not a big secret, but I'm not putting it on the news either. If you're here, you're here. If you're not, well too bad for you. Comment or not. It doesn't matter to me. Sometimes, I like to think that I need words of encouragement, but unless you are GOD ALMIGHTY himself, your words are really nothing more than dust in the wind..

Consider this, my first entry. My prologue to my story. A story that needs to be seen and heard. One that will bring joy, tears, heartache and laughter. It's the story of my life-in pieces and possibly magnified to a point where it may even be unrecognizable to those who were there to experience these events with me.

My story, with my thoughts. An inside view of what it really is like to be me, but without the humdrum of journal entry writing...real stories, real events, real people.

Welcome to my world. Enjoy your stay.

Love,
F.B.

OMG!! well, its been some time and like furever!! But it being CHRISTMAS and all,  I decided to say a little something. So far Christmas has been perdy cool, but since its oly 12:00 and I STILL have to go to WORK, I'm sure things will change pace for me, well anywaise I'm about to watch a movie with this guy Adam Johnson (AKA BOYFRIEND) so I'll catch ya later...

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!